Ok, so life is hellish.  I don't know, i feel like maybe if I... I just don't know anything anymore.  I have been just to myself which is alright for me.  It's not like anything has changed for me in my life, just that everyone who use to be called a "friend" has left me in the dark, dropped me like a rock, you know like shit that stinks, who wants to hang with that?  Fuck anyone who thinks that this is selfish, and fuck anyone who has something to say about this.  It's how I feel and if you cannot respect that then don't read my fucking page.  I don't feel like life is life anymore.  I wish I had a different life or no life at all.  I don't say this shit to get peoples attention, or make people worry about me, cuz i don't give a shit what anyone says about me, anymore, however i write it because i would never say it in words or to someone who cares about me.  You are a whole bunch of stranges and so i could give shitless about what you think, minus a few other people who know me personally and i could still care shitless if you think less of me right now.  If i was to write poems, well the would reflect me and not someone i know or watch on tv.  I don't write poems reflecting me cuz well its too personal an scary but wtf... I don't have anyone i could call friends anymore... like i said everyone has dropped me like a rock... so fuck them all